Evan Is One!

My sweet Evan. From the moment I took that pregnancy test I was terrified. Your brother had just celebrated his first birthday and I thought that I would have to perform a miracle to raise two babies just 20 months apart. Thank goodness not everything goes according to my plan. I could not imagine our family without you.

You are the worlds sweetest. I knew that the moment it was just you and I in the hospital and I got to just hold you for hours. I just looked at you and your gigantic cheeks and knew that everything was going to be ok. Crazy but ok.

You have such a sweet disposition. Your smile is unlike any smile I've seen. I'm not quite sure where it comes from but I love every turn of it. I love your thighs. I could eat them. I love the smell of your hair and the way you rest your head in my neck if only for a second.  I love the way you touch my face while I try to rock you. I love your voice and the way you say dada when I say momma. Your patience, oh my. You have such a strong connection with that wild brother of yours. Sometimes he is the only one who can get you to laugh. The laughter you and your brother have together make me feel like I am doing something right.

I hate that this year has slipped between my fingers. It has been a crazy year.  There are month's where I feel I haven't documented enough. There are nights where I just wish you'd still let me rock you and stay my baby.  Then there are days where your father and I are running on a spare but I wouldn't trade the best surprise life's given us. You are a perfect puzzle to this family. I love you, happy birthday!

Evan First Year from Katie Smith on Vimeo.